Today was a big day.  I emptied out my room with the help of my Mom.  The moving Co. is coming on the 3rd (this Monday) to pick up all of my things and bring them to FL.  While cleaning it out I found so many things I forgot I had, and remembered so many things that I forgot about.  Now I’m sitting here in my almost empty room just 11 days away from my last day here.  It’s so many things all at once.  Exciting, sad, new, scary... I could go on forever.

Tomorrow is Brandon and Tina's going away party, and my parents will also be sending out invitations for my going away party.  Saturday is my Mom's birthday, and on Monday the truck will be here to take everything away.  I have so much to look forward to, and at the same time so much to look back on.

Hey there, back again.  Moving to Florida is getting closer and closer.  I found a free washer and dryer in the newspaper and they were in pretty good condition so now we have them ready to ship down with the rest of our stuff.

I'm starting to study my algebra text book from north shore community college along with having my friends sister Jen tutor me on Mondays and Wednesdays so that I'm ready when school starts.

Yesterday I saw Julie for the first time since she fucked that kid while going out with me.  I was in my car with Brandon, and her cousin was pulling out of her street (with what I guess is his car) with her in the passengers seat.  Anyway, as I drove by I just through the bird out the window at her and yelled "Fuck You" but I don't even think she saw me as I drove by.  She was always oblivious to the world around her anyway... Dumb cunt.

Today was pretty boring.  I didn't have much to do, but I did I visited my grandparents for a while.  When I got there I found that they had bought me some stuff for when I move including, towels, Sheets, a bedspread, an extra blanket (As if I'm going to be cold or something, lol).  lol, they also got me pot holders, dish rags, and a couple of T-shirts, lol.  I don't really like them, but then again I don't really care... they're pot holders and dish rags.

Yea... that’s really all I can think of right now.

Night.

On Memorial Day I went to a barbeque at my aunt’s house.  She made steak tips and her famous salad, and all kinds of food.  My mom made an awesome desert with strawberries, blueberries, cool whip, ice cream, and some kinda cake all together.  Anyway everything was really good!  We hung around there for a while.  My dad in the living room watching TV with my uncle, and my mom and sisters were out on the deck tanning.  I was outside for a while but my sisters started bickering back and forth so I just went inside and started to use my aunt’s computer.  OMG... So slow.  I waited like 20 minutes for one page to load and couldn’t take it anymore.  I went back out side for a few minutes and then they started back at it again yelling at each other back and forth.  I didn’t really have any place to go so I just started on my way home.  Played a bit of Xbox and then packed up to Tina house.   It was Brandon’s birthday today and her people were gone for the weekend so we had a party at her house for Brandon.  Nothing huge just some of his friends and lots of alcohol! Passed out, and woke up the next morning on the couch of her living room.  I think it was like noon or something by that time.  We decided to go to the beach for the day.  Did that… fun but nothing too interesting happened.  Mostly just walking around and shit.  When I got home about 8-ish, I noticed that 4 or 5 more things sold from my eBay store!! I shipped all those out today.  Went to work around 1 or 2 and got back home just in time to get over to Brandon’s house to have our usual Wednesday night LAN party.  Anyway, I'm just about to the point where I’m typing in my blog so I guess that’s it.  Be back soon!

Since Julie broke up with me, I have done everything in my power to forget about her, yet not one day has ever gone by where I have not thought about her at least once.  I still hate her.  I still don’t take back any of the terrible things I have said to her.  I still don’t think that she deserves any bit of happiness that she may have.  I still miss her.

Last night was the first time in a long time that I actually had a dream and remembered it.  Of course it had to be about her. It was like nothing had ever happened.  Everything was just the same as it was before, at least for me anyway.  I don’t know if she was ever really happy with me or not.  Our minds play evil tricks on us, throwing us into the past as if it were the present, and then just as quickly stealing it away again.

I’m perfectly fine almost all of the time.  Whenever I start to think, I just tell myself how much I hate her and how much she hates me (in order to do what she did) and shake my head until the next time it starts to bother me.  I don’t know why but last night I started to think about her, and couldn’t shake it, and then had the dream.  I couldn’t even shake it all day today.  Now, here I am typing about her, almost falling apart like a complete fucking retard.  Everyone told me that time would be the key.  Well, time has gone by, it’s still going by, and as I said before, “Here I am writing about it” again back at square one (Not sure if I ever left).

It’s hard, it sucks, its life I guess.
I’m over it.

Before I get into the "OMG, WTF Just Happened title", I want to say that I got back from Wisconsin, and had a really good time.  Not that there is all that much to do there, but it was really cool to be able to finally meet up with Cassie for the first time.  We mostly just drove around and talked, but all and all it was a fun.  So anyways.... to get back to the title "OMG, WTF Just Happened" -- I get back from FL and went to meet Cassie for the weekend.  Needless to say, I missed some work.  No big deal right?  I took the time off weeks in advance, and had my supervisor’s approval.  Turns out that the number of sales I made was pretty low (since I wasn’t at work very much this month). So anyway... I go into work my first day back from Wisconsin, sit down at my desk, and try to sign in.  I kept getting this error message and it wouldn’t let me into the computer.  I call up the Tech Guy (Kim) and ask him to fix it for me (He can usually fix it from where ever he is via the network).  He tells me that he can't fix it, and I have to talk to Ed (the CEO, AKA the owner of ISoldMyHouse.com) Now this guy (Ed) is no computer genius, so I already know that something is up.  Instead of going to Ed, I go to Tim, my supervisor, (Who I get along with very well)  and tell him that I cant get into my computer, and Kim is telling me that I have to talk to Ed in order to get it fixed.  My supervisor looks at me and says that he knows, he just got out of Ed’s office and Ed wants him to fire me, but he is going to go back in and fight it for me.  In the mean time Tim let me sign into the computer under his username and told me to try and make a sale.  I sit down, and he goes back to talk with Ed.  I call up one of my customers and Bingo I get him to buy $500.00 worth of ads.  I go to tell Tim, and he looks at me and says there was nothing he could do...   I was PISSED!  They just fired me for absolutely no reason at all, and the biggest thing is that I wasn’t even hired as a salesman.  I was hired as a customer service rep.  There is nothing that says that I have to meet any sort of quota for a month or ever!  On my way out I almost put my fist through the front glass door.

I'm over it now though I was going to be quitting in a month or two anyway for school.

Just got back from Florida!!  I am SSSOOOOOO excited!! I am definitely going to Full Sail!  I’m in; the first amount for the school is paid.  The school is INCREDABLE! I have never seen anything cooler than it.  They get all the newest equipment and software sometimes 6 months before it goes out to the public!  I'm going to be at school between 40 – 80 hours a week, some of my classes are going to be at like 1:00 am.  The school never closes its open 24/7.  I’m going to be so busy.  Also!!! I have an apartment and I move in between the 10^th and the 15^th of August.  ONLY 4 MONTHS AWAY!!  I’ve decided to move in Brandon & Tina.  The complex has 2 pools, a nice fitness center, 3 racquet ball courts (My favorite!), and a car wash/vacuum area (on site).  We are going to have our own washer and drier in the apartment (no long haul to the laundry room!!)  So much has happened this past week I cant even think.  I just got home like 3 hours ago, went to work for a couple of hours, picked up my check and deposited it.  It’s time that I start making some serious money to pay off my car and anything that I can.  3 more days and I'm going to Wisconsin to meet up with Cassie!! So much stuff is going on its crazy!! Aight, well, too much to talk about all at once.  I’ll be back soon!!!

        Wow, so much has happened since I was last here.  It turns out that I am visiting Full Sail in Florida between the 12^th to the 19^th.  I am wicked excited!!  My buddy Brandon who is going there too visited last week, and said that the school is awesome.  I have to go down there and look at apartments and I have all kinds of stuff to do.  I have to decide if I want to get my own apartment or if I want to move in with my buddy Brandon and his GF, Tina (I’m good friends with both of them not just Brandon).  But I’d like to have my own apartment, because I’d like to have a place to get away sometimes without be stuck in my bedroom.  I’ll be back to let you know how everything goes, and what I decide to do.
        I have been talking to Cassie all the time now, Everyday, night, all the time.  She’s awesome; as a matter of fact I just bought tickets to meet her a couple weeks ago.  We know more about each other now than I know about some of my friends.  I’ll be heading over there (Wisconsin) from the 23^rd to the 26^th, that’s something else that I’m wicked excited about.  So, I’ll be in Florida from the 12^th to the 19^th come home for 3 days and then out to Wisconsin for the weekend.  This is going to be a busy month, but very fun.  I can’t wait!!
        On the other hand, you’re never going to guess who decided to drop out of UMASS and go to school in Florida.  Yea, you guessed it, “The Bitch Whore”.  Turns out that she is going to be moving there to go to some state school or something, and she is only going to be living a few blocks from where I would be living if I decide to move in with Brandon and his GF Tina.  I know it’s not even a big deal, but it just pisses me off.  Whatever, I’m over it.